Recession

Chapter 4
back to basics

back to basics

I couldn’t believe how hungry I was. We had spaghetti and meatballs and I had seconds. Mommy asked me where I was puttin it all an did I have hollow leg. I thought that was a funny thing to say an laughed. Mommy wanted us to finish because she had a date, and was pretty excited about going out.

"Now Amy, I should be back around 11:30. I want Katie asleep by 9:00," mommy instructed my sister.

"But mom, I had plans. I was going out with my friends, and its the last time I’ll see them before camp!" Amy said. "I didn’t know you were going out."

"Well I am, and I really like this guy. Hmmm....I know. Jessica said she wasn’t working yet....maybe she’ll be free. She went to the phone and called Jess. She was free. "Well, that was lucky. Lucky for you Amy. If I couldn’t get a babysitter than you would have had to cancel your plans," mommy said. Everyone was pretty much ignoring me.

"I’m not a baby," I said, indignant.

"Of course you’re not dear, its just a phrase. It’ll be easier when you’re big enough to take care of yourself when we go out," mommy said. "Anyway, I know how you like Jessica. You always have such a good time with her. Anyway, why don’t you girls finish cleaning up while I get ready for my date.

Me and Amy cleared the table and did the dishes, then Amy had to get ready to go out with her friends. That had a really familiar ring to it, and I sorta felt like I oughta be going out with my friends too, and hanging out and being with boys...it was so strange, and as fast as that feeling came, it left and I shrugged it off. That was such a silly thing to think of because I don’t go out with my friends at night and don’t have a boyfriend and there was no reason why I should anyway cuz I’m only 8. Mommy told me that Jessie would be here soon and that I should get ready for bed. I took my doggie up to my room and took my clothes off and put on my jammies, a really cool pink barbie top that was like a babydoll and sort of frilly matching panties. I thought they were cute an if it didn’t say Barbie on them they almost looked like my sister’s nightie. I went downsatirs and turned on the tv and I was psyched cuz Spongebob just came on! I thought it was like the funniest show in the whole world and onetime I was watching and Patrick was so funny I almost peed my pants! I was watching it when Jessie showed up.

"Hi Katie, whatcha watchin? " she asked.

"Spongebob, the one where Squidward puts on a talent show," I giggled. "Look, this is where they throw the salad at him!"

"This is such a funny show, sometimes I watch it with my boyfriend," Jessie said. I looked at her. It was funny, but it felt like I was seeing her for the first time. I didn’t realize how tall she was, and I dunno I know we have fun together but she’s so much older than me its like talking to my mommy, sort of. "Say, that’s a really cute nightie kiddo. Think they have one in my size?" she laughed.

I blushed. "I bet you have much nicer stuff than this," I said. "Why would you want to wear a Barbie nightie, you’re a grown-up.

Jessie sighed. "I know I am honey, but you wanna know a secret?" she leaned closer and whispered to me. "Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be a little girl again, like you."

"You don’t wanna be grown-up? Hey, who are you callin a little girl!" I huffed. She laughed.

"Oh, I guess it’s ok being grown-up. Remember when we used to play the grown-up game, and you pretended to be 22? Sometimes I like to pretend I’m a little....I mean a young lady of maybe 8 years of age. Don’t you ever wonder what it would be like to be younger?" she asked.

I blushed again. "Um....sometimes, I guess."

We could play a game if you’d like, and you can see how much fun it is. Maybe you’ll like it better than the grown-up game. We can call it the younger game. You can pretend to get younger. I can pretend to be your mommy. Does that sound like fun sweetie? C’mon, you saw this episode of Spongebob before anyway," she coaxed.

I wasn’t sure how fun it sounded, but it sure sounded familiar. I did have fun playing the grown-up game with Jessie, maybe I’ll like this game too. "Um....how...how much younger," I asked.

"Oh, we should make you much younger don’t you think, then you’ll really get into it," she said.

"Ok Jessie, maybe it’ll be fun," I said.

"I’m sure it will be sweetheart. Now, come sit on my lap," she said, and I obliged.

"How’s that Jessie?" I asked.

"Now since when do you call your mother by her first name young lady?" she laughed.

"oops, I mean how’s that mommy," I asked. I was wondering if I was too heavy for her, but she didn’t seem to mind and sort of cuddled me.

"That’s just fine suger plum. I know you’re 8, but you’re still my baby, aren’t you?" she said, gently squeezing me.

"Yes mommy," I responded.

"I was afraid that now you’re a big girl you might forget that," she said sweetly, hugging me close. "I remember when you were just a baby, I would hold you like this, and rock you. You don’t remember being a tiny baby of course, wearing a diaper and a little onesy sleeper, do you? That’s a long time ago and hard to remember, isn’t it" she rocked me.

I yawned. "Yes mommy I don’t remember that," I said.

"But you do remember being 7, right little one, that wasn’t so long ago was it, and it was pretty much like being 8, right? If you were 7, you could still wear that cute nightie...and it would fit about the same....but it would be a little looser, right sweetie? The panties wouldn’t be quite so snug...there would be a few wrinkles in them... maybe we should get you ones that fit next time.....but it’s ok munchkin, you’ll grow into them soon, and besides they were out of size 7," she kissed my cheek.

"I’ll grow into them soon," I repeated. I really wanted this Barbie nightie because the Barbie on the front looked just like mine an mommy almost didn’t get them for me because they only had size 8. I was so happy when she got it for me I put it right on.

"I bet you’re gonna have a great time at camp this year, don’t you think?" mommy asked. That brought me back to reality. I groaned.

"I don’t wanna be away from you all summer mommy," I said.

"Away? It’s just a daycamp dear, remember? You’re not old enough to go to overnight camp are you?" mommy said. And I realized I wasn’t. They don’t let you go to sleep over camp until you’re 8.

"No, mommy, I’m not old enough. I’m only 7," I said.

"Of course you are dear. Only 7. I remember when you started first grade...remember? You were scared to be away from me all day long even though you were excited about going...but it was easier for me than kindergarden, because that was only half a day and I had to be home to get you off the bus in the middle of the day...but then we would have fun, and have the rest of the day to ourselves...remember honey? That was a lot of fun spending the whole day with my little girl," mommy said.

"That was fun mommy," I said cuz I did like kindergarden.

"You were very excited about riding the school bus, you never did that before did you?" she asked.

"I never rode the school bus I bet it’s fun," I said.

"And you get to go on the bus with all the big kids...I bet you’re gonna like that. My little girl, she’s certainly growing up fast...already going to kindergarden ...I can’t believe its been 5 years since you were born...it seems like only yesterday..." mommy said.

I was getting sleepy. What was mommy talking about? I kinda remember we were playing a weird game but I couldn’t remember what it was. I snuggled aginst her. My eyes were getting heavy. I yawned.

"Is my little girl getting sleepy? We better get you ready for bed sweetheart," mommy said.

"I already have my jammies on mommy, can’t I stay up longer, I’ll be good," I said sleepily.

"You can stay up with me as long as you want Katie, but I want to get you ready for bed in case you fall asleep. Time to use the potty. C’mon sweetie," and we got up and mommy walked me to the potty. She pulled down my panties...they almost fell off by themselves, and helped me on and pulled my nightie back. "Go pee-pee dear, you don’t want to have any accidents tonight, right?"

"I’m a big girl mommy, I won’t have a accident," I said. She thought I was such a baby, I’ll show her! I did my business and mommy helped me wipe cuz sometimes I forget to do that, and we went to my room. Mommy was so tall I only came up to her belly I hope I’m big like her when I grow up. I scooted up on my bed and grabbed my doggie.

"Ok honey, you know the deal," mommy said laying me on my back and pulling up my nightie. She took out a diaper and slipped it under my bottom. "You get to sleep in big girl panties if you can stay dry all night, ok?" She fastened on my diaper.

"But mommy only babies wear diapers ’n I’m a big girl," I said.

"Do it for mommy, ’k?" mommy said, and kissed my cheek. She tucked me in and turned to go.

"Mommy, can’t you lay down with me till I fall asleep?" I asked.

"Sure sweetie," mommy said climbing into the bed. I cuddled against her boob an she had her hand on my bottom an at first I didn’t like the diaper but y’know it felt kinda nice n comfy after a while....n warm....an comfy an warm an really warm. Mommy patted my bottom. "See sweetie, even a big girl can forget...I know its hard...you’ll be using the potty soon," she said, and turned on the lights and changed me an why do I hafta use the dumb ol potty anyway I’ll use it when I want to an all of the sudden I felt really really hungry and tried to tell mommy but she didn’t understand an she laid down next to me and pulled off her shirt and I was so hungry and she pulled me close to her and I ...I....suck....suck....suck.......

the end