Hindsight

Chapter 1
Hindsight

Chapter Description: Trick or treat, don't steal.

Trick or treat

Don't steal

In hindsight I have to admit that I should have just said no, no to stealing, no to knocking over little kids and laughing at their tears as we stole the sweets that fell out of their bags or buckets. I thought I was being so funny by doing what my peers insisted I do so that they would like me, that usual teenage and young adult nonsense with many who are so desperate to be part of the popular crowd.

I was an utter idiot and now understand why my gran and mum kept telling me to stop and think before doing something that would hurt others, karma really likes to kick you in the ass.

Since I have until sun rise before the full punishment for my hubris kicks in then I'll explain.

I was originally 22 years old, a young adult. I never had that many friends growing up as people thought I was too different from them despite my efforts to be like them, I wanted so much to fit in with the hope that in doing so I would be able to dull the distress within myself from dysphoria and suffering through the wrong puberty.

Being a trans girl is hard, being a trans young woman is even harder and as I wasn't able to be myself due to oppressive laws denying me badly needed support and health care then I forced myself to suffer through the hell that society demanded. So I tried to be what was demanded of me while hating myself and my actions all the while.

Last night I met up with a group of the more popular young adults of my age group, four young men and their girlfriends who frankly were honestly as nasty as they were and I think at least two of the men were faking their attraction to the young women they were with, the same with two of the young women as they seemed more interested in one another than in their boyfriends.

Anyway I digress and my time is running out.

I wanted to fit in, be liked, be popular, be part of something that would hopefully dull the ache so I was, foolishly, willing to do whatever was needed to gain their approval. We stole from little kids who were trick or treating by distracting their parents or guardians who were with them and someone would steal from them covertly, we shoplifted, we played pranks on people, we made a mess and some of the group I was with got rather drunk.

The police came after us when we ended up hurting people physically, we bolted and found ourselves in an abandoned shop. Well we believed it was abandoned as it was most of the year but this year it was all decked out for Halloween and the shelves were packed, the shop owner, a woman of indeterminate age, was just closing up for the day after what looked to have been a busy night.

They were surprised to see us and after explaining that she was just heading home but if we were looking to buy something then she could wait until we left. I was curious about some of the things as they were all very unusual items I had never seen before in any other shop.

But the group I was with had other ideas as they tried to distract her while others tried to shoplift and leave, she knew what they had done though and what was going on. She wasn't exactly angry which was odd, it was almost like she knew what they would try to do.

When she said that they should return what they had taken they laughed and attempted to leave only to find the door was locked. She smiled as they tried to leave, each of them getting flustered as they tried to smash the windows and force open the door, it was a cold smile.

I remember her words quite clearly, they were so clear as if she was speaking into my mind itself.

“This night I have the right to do as I will to those who would steal from me and mine, Halloween grants such a right while other times I must seek permission. By rights I can do whatever I like to you, anything at all” She had looked at each person before looking at me, I hadn't taken anything but I was still an accomplice and had stolen from others earlier in the night.

“Oh I do like seeing people like you, the ones hidden within and forced to conform by the demands of monsters. You I will save for last, just stay there while I deal with your friends not that they are your friends” She looked over to the others who had picked up various heavy objects to use as weapons, the smile was still in place.

“So you wish to commit harm upon me, oh how sweet the resistance. Violence is your resolution to a problem but not mine, mine is something much more befitting the crime and I know of the things you have done this night and many other nights and days, each one of you seeks so much to inflict pain on others so to try and ignore the emptiness in your hearts. Youth is wasted on the young so I have something better in mind, something permanent or until the time has come to release you” They attempted to attack her but before they could even land a blow on her they were gone and in their place was a bunch of fabric dolls wearing the same clothing and looking very much like them.

“Much better, you'll all stay like this for as long as I deem fit. You'll be quite aware of what's happened but unable to do anything, you'll be trapped within looking out without any way to ask for help. You can be part of my aunt's collection at the festival she'll be holding very soon, she does love new additions to her collection” The dolls disappeared in a small flash of light before she turned to me.

“Now then let's see about you. While you did hurt others with trying to fit into that silly little group you didn't try to harm me like they did, so instead I feel that something where you can learn from your mistakes is in order but I won't be cruel in doing so” My body began to feel different as she said those words, I felt my unwanted parts between my legs shrink into my groin and invert, my chest began to grow as breasts developed, my hair became longer and softer, I could feel my body shifting and changing, my clothing had changed as well to a more feminine style of what I was wearing at the time.

“Much better, you make a very pretty young woman as yourself” She held a mirror up and I could see myself, truly myself, a dark brown haired woman of about twenty two years old was looking back at me with beautiful light brown eyes.

“This is who you truly are, who you were meant to be had nature not been so random. Now for your punishment and you had better learn from your mistakes during it. By sunrise tomorrow you will be a young child again, a baby girl of about a year old. You will grow up again but as yourself and as far as your parents and everyone else is concerned you'll have always been a baby girl.
Happy Halloween soon to be young one, do be sure to learn from your mistakes”

She had let me leave and waved to me before the shop went dark, becoming abandoned like it was before. I had raced home feeling both fear and euphoria, fear from that experience with the woman and euphoria at feeling my breasts moving in my bra, which had appeared on me when my body and clothing was changed.
When I got home I wasted no time in checking myself out which only made the euphoria stronger, I was truly physically myself in full. That euphoria still hasn't diminished despite my gradually diminishing age, I have become so young and I haven't slept at all.

With each year lost my surroundings have changed to match and my memories are starting to feel like they're being placed in some kind of internal mental box that I can access while feeling less willing to except for the ones connected to this being done to me as I must learn from my mistakes.

It's hard to stay awake though the younger I get, the sun is due to rise in a few minutes and I'm so young now, a toddler at least. This recording will probably disappear or maybe it won't, I don't know, I just know that I'm really wanting to just fall asleep. A nice comfortable, restful sleep.

I can see the sun starting to rise, the night is being pushed away. I'm just going to close my eyes now, here comes the sun.

Trick or treat

Don't steal.